Venting the Exhaustion

I'm so exhausted right now. You can probably chalk this all up to pregnancy hormones but have you ever had one of those days where you just want to say "I give up" and crawl into a cave? Forgive me, but I'm going to let these pregnancy hormones come loose.

I could never be one of those people that spends their entire life living out of a hotel. As nice as this place is, I hate it here now. Did I say hate? I mean despise, loathe, detest...LOL Yes, there is too much of a good thing. I'm sick and tired of depending on housekeeping to clean up. Yes, you read that right! haha I could tell her not to come in but then I have dust and dog hair floating around all day *gag*. I'm sick and tired of having to get dressed every morning to go to breakfast. Sometimes a girl just wants to sit around in her pjs. Worst of all, the boys are bouncing off the walls. I try to get them out but, really, there's just nothing to do outside either. And I cant just say "go outside, get out of my hair" when they're going bonkers.

The outlook for us to get out of here? still unknown, even though we do have a house. The landlord is out of town this week so there wont be a contract reveiw for at least another week. I guess we should maybe count that as a blessing because somehow we need to come up with $8k to put down on this house. The military hasnt been exactly faithful to paying us back the money we need for the hotel - which is over $2k every 8-10 days, mind you. Not to mention all the other things that we need to buy/pay for. Our savings is quickly becoming a memory.

Money worries are probably another contributer to my exhaustion. I know "worry" is a sin. I shouldnt worry, I'm trying not to worry - though D. probably would say otherwise. lol It's taking a real mental effort on my part not to worry over this... haha which that effort is probably exhausting me as well. Darn those double-edged swords!

And probably the number one reason for all of this exhaustion and worry is lack of sleep. I love being pregnant, I really do. I love being able to feel the baby kicking and moving, which is happening very frequently now. I love the unexplainable feeling you have while your pregnant. The only thing I dont like is not being able to sleep. I know, I know, it's God's way of getting us ready for "things to come" but I wanna sleep!! *throws a tantrum like a 2year old* I have dreams that are something out of some wierd psychotic sci-fi movie. My dreams have gotten so bad that I actually dread going to bed at night. *song from Nightmare on Elm Street begins to play* No, no, dont think about that, that's not helping.

So that's the jist of what's going on here now. Mom frazzled and kids bouncing off hotel walls. LOL I will keep you updated as things change. Also, Monday is the "big day". I have my next doctor's appointment then and hopefully this time the baby will show his or herself off so we know to decorate in blue or pink ;).