There's a message board I have been reading since I was pregnant, I mostly just read since it's a very large group, but all of us had due dates in the month of Dec 08. Within the last 2 weeks or so there have been 3 babies that have died, two of them were from SIDS. Maybe it's post-partum-whatever but I am going insane with worry!
For the first time ever, Ella's fallen asleep and stayed asleep without being in the swing or in my arms. Of course I dont get to enjoy it at all, I keep going over to check if she's breathing every few minutes. It's just not fair, this SIDS! You can follow all the "rules" they say to follow, but there's nothing for sure that you can do to prevent it.
I dont want to hear anything or read any more about SIDS! I wish I could just remove myself from the internet. I've already removed myself from that message board for fear of bringing up the page and seeing yet another loss.
Please say a prayer for those families that lost... and maybe a small prayer of protection for ours and other families with babies.
2 comments:
Oh Amy, I can only imagine how you must be feeling. My cousins baby, who was born a few months after our Shaun in 1983, died of SIDS, & it totally devastated our family. Shaun was only a few months older & after that I kept him by my side constantly & he slept with us. I could not bear to put him in a crib. So I do understand some of your feelings. I know some of the boards are HUGE & I left one doll board after so many women were losing their grown kids to accidents. I was getting paranoid & thought one of my kids was going to die. I felt guilty that my kids were okay! I was taking every death so personally & it was affecting my life.
Before the Internet we had our circle of friends & family which really wasn't that big (in the overall scheme of things), but when you add the Internet & people from all around the country & world, you are adding a enormous amount of people that you can become emotionally involved with. I think it was wise to quit that board & just focus on your dear little ones & your family. You just had a baby & your hormones aren't even back to normal yet. The odds are everything will be just fine. You can't be stressing every day or it will affect you & your family.
((hugs)) & God Bless. Sending prayers that God & Elizabeth's guardian angels will wrap their arms of protection around her & keep her safe & healthy.
Loreen
Amy, I really don't know what to say to you that would stop you from worrying. But I have to agree with Loreen--you did the right thing by leaving the board. You don't need to keep reading about SIDS-all it will cause you to do is worry more and then pass that on to Ella. I will pray for you and your family that you get through this fearful period. Please know that I'm thinking of you and Ella along with the rest of the family.
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